still sad.......=(

finally i say it.........i must be out of my mind........
i know my feeling, i know the chance she will say 'yes' is little, but yet i still did the stupid thing.......
although it was not a strict 'no' or something like we're impossible or we can just be friend, i still felt bad.........she said she is not ready......
day 1 post-vindication, i still text and call her like old days, the way she treated me is still the same.......maybe it is good for me, at least she is not being avoidance.........
i should move on, but i still can't stop thinking of her.........