i hate being lonely............

being lonely is so pathetic and miserable........i hate this feeling, it's like the end of the world, i think even worse than that.......
i hate to be lonely......i hate you make me love you.......
i know my feeling, even though u didn't say it, i know you are not mine...........not yet........and never will be.......
i know i am not perfect, neither do you, but i do not know why i still like you so much........
it's nothing personal, it's just a way to relieve my depression and loneliness.......
at the end of the day, i still can't clear up my mind of you........

still sad.......=(

finally i say it.........i must be out of my mind........
i know my feeling, i know the chance she will say 'yes' is little, but yet i still did the stupid thing.......
although it was not a strict 'no' or something like we're impossible or we can just be friend, i still felt bad.........she said she is not ready......
day 1 post-vindication, i still text and call her like old days, the way she treated me is still the same.......maybe it is good for me, at least she is not being avoidance.........
i should move on, but i still can't stop thinking of her.........

so sad.........=(

why my emotion has to be determined by others?
why couldn't i just take control of it........i can't help.......i'm too deeply involved
i wanna get myself out of the misery........
strictly speaking i hardly know her.......but from the first sight i know it is her.......she's the one.......
am i too naive????? withholding all the decisions of my future for her answer which i hardly have the courage to ask..............never felt so uncertain and hesitant........
well, nobody can be sure in that matter........

What happen to me??

She is so special, i just can't stop thinking of her.
The feeling is uncontrollable, it is so real.
I have never had that kind of feeling for years.......it is so strong........it's making me suffocating.......
But she is so unpredictable........I have no idea what she's thinking about.........I am such a loser.........
One thing for sure, I am totally falling for her.........

COOL!!!!!!

Gifts from my best fren

It was so nice to receive presents from him but the best part was to meet with him after such a long time. We were spending the whole night chit-chatting, gossiping, enjoying the wine, ..............
The Ukrainian chocolate is so nice, and i limit myself only take one per day coz i'm too reluctant to finish all at once, though i'm thinking of doing it. LOL.
I haven't tried the Ukrainian whisky but the vodka is not bad too. Mixing the vodka with sliced lemon and sprite is fantastic, i can drink 5 cups in a roll.
Thanks choon hua, hope i have time to go back Teluk Intan to catch up with you again. must pray hard that i'll be posted to Hospital TI in the coming paediatrics posting.

Best jokes

The best adult jokes contest 2009 through cellphone texts/smses in U.S.A.
Grand Prize USD50,000.00
1) Newly wed girl told mom her husband is still a virgin.
Mom asked "How do you know dear?"
Girl replied "Last night, when we made love, his cock was still in plastic cover."
First Prize USD25,000.00
(2) Immigrant Worker: "Sir, me no come to work, me sick."
Boss: " When I am sick, I have sex with my wife - try it."
2 hours later>>Immigrant Worker: "Boss! It worked! Me ok now. You got nice house."
10 Consolation Prize USD10,000.00 each
(3) After sex, a newly wed wife kept fondling her husband's cock.
Husband asked: "Why? Want to have sex again?"
Wife replied: "No dear, I just admiring your cock. I used to have one before."

(4) Women's lives are hard. Morning, wash clothes. Noon, hang clothes.
Evening, keep clothes. Nite, iron clothes.
Midnight, take off clothes. After midnight, find clothes.

(6) Priest lost his chicken and asked during mass:
"Anyone got a cock?" All men rose.
"I meant anyone seen a cock?" All women rose.
"I mean anyone seen my cock?" All nuns rose.

(7) A Sad story>> A woman's husband died and she had him cremated.
She then blew his ashes into the ocean and said,
" Sweetheart, this is my last blowjob for you."

(8) Girl: "Mom what is a penis?"
Mom: "When you become a good girl, you will get one."
Girl: "But mom, what if I am not a good girl?"
Mom: "Then you will get many, dear!"

(9) A lawyer who was confused in his mathematics asked his secretary:
"If I give you USD3 million less 17.5%, how much would you take off?"
Secretary: "Everything sir! Dress, Bra, Panties, Everything."

(10) Schoolgirl: "I do not want to take the sex Education class."
Teacher: "Why?"
Schoolgirl: "Someone told me that the final exam will be Oral."

(11) Two sperms talking on mobile phone.
Ist: "I'm somewhere between the fallopian tube and uterus. Are you close-by?"
2nd: "No boy, I am taking a different route. I am just crossing the tonsils."

(12) Scientists have discovered that the lightest thing in the world is a penis.
This is because it can be lifted up even by just a simple thought.