so sad.........=(

why my emotion has to be determined by others?
why couldn't i just take control of it........i can't help.......i'm too deeply involved
i wanna get myself out of the misery........
strictly speaking i hardly know her.......but from the first sight i know it is her.......she's the one.......
am i too naive????? withholding all the decisions of my future for her answer which i hardly have the courage to ask..............never felt so uncertain and hesitant........
well, nobody can be sure in that matter........