five simple rules to be happy

my friend once told me about the 5 simple rules to be happy
i would like to share them with you too
hope you can put some thoughts on them

1. Free your heart from hatred
2. Free your mind from worries
3. Live simply
4. Give more
5. Demand less, expect miracles in life

No one can go back and make a brand new start,
Anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending..

God didn't promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, sun without rain,
but He did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears and light for the way.

Disappointments are like road bumps, they slow you down a bit
but you will enjoy the smooth road afterwards.
Don't stay on the bumps too long. Move on!

When you feel down because you didn't get what you want,
just sit tight and be happy, because God has thought of something better to give you..

When something happens to you, good or bad, consider what it means.

There's a purpose to life's events, to teach you how to laugh more or not to cry too hard.

You can't make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved; the rest is up to the person to realize your worth.

It's better to lose your pride to the one you love,
than to lose the one you love because of pride.

We spend too much time looking for the right person to love or finding fault with those we already love, when instead we should be perfecting the love we give.

Never abandon an old friend. You will never find one who can take his place. Friendship is like wine, it gets better as it grows older.

food in hukm

haih.........food in HUKM is terrible
no variety at all
everyday have to eat the same thing
is either nasi lemak or mee rojak
these are the only 'eatable' things to me

the happiest thing is during the weekend
bcoz i can eat outside with my friends
we have the same interest, we like to eat delicious food
we always explore to try on new restaurant and new food

i just bought a book on popular food guide recently
i hope i can try all the food inside that book
but by that time, my belly sure will increase by twofold

'sien'

at first i was excited about life in HUKM
but day after day i feel all the things happen around me has become a routine
may be i was adapted to the life here
but i don't like my life to be dull
i like excitements
i need to make my life more interesting

lonesome nite

tonight is a lonesome night
actually every night is the same to me since i broke up
but tonight i feel more lonely than any others night
this is the second night after i decided to let go
may be the first night i was drunk so i didn't feel so lonely

i worked very hard for the past 6 months
i did anything for her
i already did whatever i could
i already did my best
i had changed, changed to what she hope for last time
but it is useless now
coz what she wants now is not what she wanted last time

nothing i can do now except to let go
that is what she wants now
she said this will make both of us happier
i don't know whether i will be happier but i know she will

she had let someone else to occupy her heart not long ago
there is no place for me anymore
the place that used to be mine had changed its owner
but i was reluctant to believe it
i keep on trying harder and harder hoping for a miracle to happen
but the reality is so cruel
it keeps on letting me down
i cannot stand the suffering anymore
i am going to burst one day

is he so excellent compare to me?
is he treating u better than me?
why u give him the chance but not me
u know i always dying for the chance
just one last chance
but it is too late for now
u already make the decision
my dream disappear

u know how hard for me to let go??
u know how suffer i am to make that decision??
but i will still do it
this is the one last thing i will do for u---to let go of u
i don't know whether i can really let go coz i really love u so much
let the time be my medicine

hope u and him can live happily ever after
if he dares to bully u, i will never forgive him

2 weeks in medical ward

haih...........2 weeks passed
my medicine posting still left with 6 weeks
then i have to sit for my final exam
but i still wondering around and do not care
our badge is different from our senior
bcoz we are in the new curriculum
seniors have their final exam after each posting
unlike them, we have to sit for exam of two posting together
really stress

in the first week in medical ward, i thought medicine posting quite free
coz most of the time we are wondering around the ward, chit chatting with the patients, help the h/o (houseman) doing some procedures
my mentor (an endocrinologist) was not around for the first week
so all my bedside teaching was canceled
i have no pressure at all in the first week

but when she came back in the second week
it was a disaster
everyone of my group was scolded
then only we realized that there are so many things we don't know
coz we cannot answer most of her questions

worst still i was the first person to present a long case
that was my first time, i really nervous
i learned history taking long time ago
but when i performed, i still did many mistakes
i forgot to ask many important question when clerking the patient
then when i presented my physical examination findings, she was not satisfied as well
i really need to improve

anyway she is a very good mentor although she is very strict
i am amazed by her knowledge in medicine
i am sure i will learn a lot under her guidance

is doctor a good job?

i think for many people, they will say being a doctor is something to be proud of
many parents hope to send their children into the medical school
but i can tell u, to become a doctor is really not easy
and being a doctor is also not something very grand
actually i am a bit regret for choosing ths field
but it is too late for me to change anything

y i say like that?
i don't mean i don't like this field
but medical life is really very hectic
many sacrifices have to make

many of my friends had graduated and working now
i am so jeolous lah........coz they can earn thier own money
but i am still in 3rd year and still have to depend on my parents

doctor is really not so great
to become a doctor u have to study more and longer than any other courses
after graduated then have to work for the government and get very little pay
it is also a high risk job coz u can die or get infected anytime

anyway i will still do my best
coz there is something that only can be obtained from this job
and that is the satisfaction of saving people

Interesting maths

I got these interesting equations from a friend. Quite funny reading them but some are very true indeed. Hope u enjoy too.

ROMANCE MATHEMATICS
Smart man + smart woman = romance
Smart man + dumb woman = affair
Dumb man + smart woman = marriage
Dumb man + dumb woman = pregnancy
______________________________

OFFICE ARITHMETIC
Smart boss + smart employee = profit
Smart boss + dumb employee = production
Dumb boss + smart employee = promotion
Dumb boss + dumb employee = overtime
_____________________________

SHOPPING MATH
A man will pay $20 for a $10 item he needs.
A woman will pay $10 for a $20 item that she doesn't need.
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GENERAL EQUATIONS & STATISTICS
A woman worries about the future until she gets a husband.
A man never worries about the future until he gets a wife.
A successful man is one who makes more money than his wife can spend.
A successful woman is one who can find such a man.
_____________________________

HAPPINESS
To be happy with a man, you must understand him a lot and love him a little.
To be happy with a woman, you must love her a lot and not try to understand her at all. ______________________________

LONGEVITY
Married men live longer than single men do, but married men are a lot more willing to die. ______________________________

PROPENSITY TO CHANGE
A woman marries a man expecting he will change, but he doesn't.
A man marries a woman expecting that she won't change, and she does.
_____________________________

DISCUSSION TECHNIQUE
A woman has the last word in any argument.
Anything a man says after that is the beginning of a new argument. _____________________________

HOW TO STOP PEOPLE FROM BUGGING YOU ABOUT GETTING MARRIED
Old aunts used to come up to me at weddings, poking me in the ribs and cackling, telling me, "You're next." They stopped after I started doing the same thing to them at funerals.

internal medicine posting

today is my forth day in the medicine posting
finally i can catch up with the pace in medical ward

thinking back the first few days i was in medical ward
i was as if in the lost world
wondering with no direction
and doing nothing in the ward
this may be due partly to my mentor is off for 1 week

actually this posting quite tough
i am quite worry now bcoz 1 week is going to pass
but i still not making any progress
there are so many requirements for this posting
for instance we have to clerk the patients and write case reports
and have to do many procedures like venepuncture and venous blood taking
we also have to observe some complicated procedures like bone marrow aspiration and trephine biopsy
so far i don't even complete 10% of them

life in hukm is really tiring
i have to wake up at 6 something every morning and by 7am we have to reach the medical ward
actually we are required to stay in the ward until 5pm
but usually at around 3pm i will run away
haha.........

the hospital is so huge
i will be sweating nonstop by just walking around the hospital
in the second day my legs 'jau' cannot 'tahan' 'liao'

in the first 3 days i was trying to take blood from the patients
maybe i was too nervous, no matter how hard i tried, the blood just won't come out
i was so frustrated
i was so scare that the patients and their relatives will scold me bcoz i pop so many holes in the patients' arm
luckily, after so many times of failure, i succeeded to withdraw blood from 2 patients this morning
i am so proud of myself
finally i manage to grasp the skill of punching people
hehehe.............

so my final words to my readers 'never give up until u meet your goal'

last day in hometown

today is my last holiday in my hometown
tomorrow i will be going back to HUKM in cheras
this time i am going back alone
sigh........
coz last time we always go back KL or teluk intan together

i think after today, i will not going back to my hometown again for a long time
the soonest i think is after my medicine posting
actually not because i am busy
but is because i feel very lonely in my hometown
at least i have friends in KL who will accompany me whenever i am down

i really miss her very much
i am dying to win her heart back
i am so stupid to disappoint her last time
it was all my fault
i will never do the same mistake again
i hope she can forgive me and start a new life with me
(sounds like impossible but i will never give up)

my holiday

my 1 week holiday is going to end soon
actually still got only 2 days
as expected, my holiday is dull
coz most of my friends are not around
some studying in oversea and some working
but luckily still got one is around

his name is choon hua
but i used to call him 'zua' (means snake in hokkien)
he studies the same course as me
haha.......another doctor
but not the same country
his university is in Ukraine
i wish to visit him coz he promise to bring me go around europe
haih......but now i got no money

after my holiday, i am going to start a new medical life
coz this time my posting is situated in hukm
then i have the chance to experience life in hospital
a bit excited coz can see patient everyday

fluctuating emotion

this evening i go jogging alone from my house to her house (quite far)
i start to like jogging during my posting at tanjong karang
actually i am forced to jog
coz there are no other suitable forms of exercise for me
my friends all play football
at first i join them also
but something terrible happened
i accidentally kicked my friend's head until he was admitted into the hospital
then i dare not play again

actually i was planning to give her a surprise
but unfortunately she was not in
i was quite disappointed and had no choice but to go home
but then on my way back to my house, i met her
such a coincidence
i was really happy

haih.....but my happiness does not last long
coz just now i read her blog and i found out something that make my heart breaks
i won't blame her
no matter what she did, she is still the most important person to me

to vivien

i was sorry about the previous blog writing about u
maybe i was wrong
u do not have any feeling on me anymore

i was quite sad yesterday after u said u want to let go everything and start a new relationship
i know what u said is true coz this situation sure will happen eventually
it's just the matter of time

i want to tell u that what i said yesterday are all coming out from my heart
no one can replace u in my heart
i know u won't believe me
i will let the time to prove everything

i just hope u won't treat me like stranger
please don't keep a distance from me
u can just treat me as a normal friend
and let me help u whenever and whatever i can

melaka trip

i just came back to teluk intan yesterday
i went to melaka last friday as a gift to myself
my ex-roommate is so kind to let me stay in his house
i would like to say thank you to him that he sacrifices his time to take me here and there

actually i went to melaka before a few times
but this time i really look deep into the fantasy of melaka
melaka is a paradice
thanks to my friend that bcoz of him i had the chance to taste all the famous food in melaka
the food i like most is the nyonya cushine especially the asam fish and rendang chicken
their taste is so special
besides that he also brought me through every single corner of melaka

i really enjoy my trip in melaka
i also enjoy the time with his family especially his little brother
they are very nice

end of my posting

finally my posting at tanjong karang had ended
i must admit that the time pass so fast
before i realize, half of my semester has passed
still got 3 more postings to go before i end my third year
i must prepare myself to face the coming challenge-----medicine posting-----the toughest posting
but i know myself very well,
i won't do any reading during my holiday
coz i am too lazy
haha......haha........
but i am quite comfortable with my learning style
play hard, study hard, and rest hard
so just let me enjoy my 1 week holiday