Why?

i was turned down by her again yesterday
i am so sad
actually i was turned down by her endless times already ever since she decided to end this relationship
i already get used to upset

it's already 5 months pass since we separated
she treat me so cool lately
i don't know why i still have feeling on her
the feeling is so strong
i couldn't believe that i love her so deep

i really don't know what is her thinking
why she choose to be single rather than giving me a last chance
maybe she is not single now
but i don't know

sorry to those reading my blog
coz i keep on writing about her
maybe by writing about her i can feel that she is just right beside me
haha.......i think i am going insane