how are u recently?

u really want to know how i feel about u?
u really think v r happier now?
may be it is true for u
but i never felt happier
my happiest time is the time with u
i just make myself very very busy so that i don't have time to think of u
but it never work

u think i want to be enemy with u?
i never want to be enemy with anyone, especially with u
i never want to stop chatting with u
u know how sad i am when i do so
i just don't want to get hurt
every time i chat with u since we breakup,i felt down
coz i don't know how to pretend to chat with u as a friend
i don't want just be friend
i still love u

every night i am wondering how r u now
but i am afraid to call u or sms u
coz i dunno how u felt about me

i miss u very very much
i really really miss u
i just want to let u know--i still love u as before, more than before

i don't know whether u will read my blog again
i know u will not happy with what i wrote
but trust me, i don't mean to affect yr life
i just want to express my feeling
i think this is a better way for us to converse

last weekend i went back to teluk intan
but i am so afraid to meet u
actually i really hope to reconcile with u
but i am so scare to be rejected again
i don't want to get hurt
i don't want to cry anymore

i love you
plz dun angry with what i wrote
i will bless u always